Do you ever feel invisible?
Being yourself doesn't seem to be good enough these days. It is not an effective strategy to combat the loneliness of being single. So, you go out of your way, do gross feats of acrobatics, just to be noticed.
Your overtures to the other gender are constantly unreciprocated for a variety of unperceivable reasons. You are always attracted to the wrong person and the wrong person is always looking back at you. They become angry for your intrusions upon their invisibility and you become deflated for trying to be noticed. It is an endless cycle of the worst kind of pain.
What you really want is for another to like you, like you, just as you are. Who enjoys spending time with you. hanging out, smelling your farts, letting your hair down, and becoming mutually acquainted with one another's strengths and weaknesses. Someone you can learn to love in all seasons of life.
The reality is this: Time goes by and you're still somehow alone. Perhaps there is something inside you that is off. Everyone else can see it, but why not you? When you realize this truth, you create reasons for being alone and thus remain invisible.
---January 26, 2003. The piece was found on Wednesday, August 23, 2011